[Ferran very nearly replies to Wash's first remark with some kind of quip about starting to wonder about that, but he can't bring himself to put any words to it. His eyes move to Wash's face when he removes his helmet, and even if he has a hard time believing anything positive right now, he's still paying attention, listening. He has a hard time thinking about being a small piece of the puzzle, when he was always so... put on a pedestal. Popular, wealthy, smart. The most powerful of his group, simply because that's how the cards fell.
He knows logically that there will always be people who are needed to be just a part of a whole, and that it's important for them to be there. He would never deny that everyone can make a difference in their own way, just... it never felt like it applied to him. Like he had to be the best, or at least do something notable, or else he's a failure. For a second, he presses his lips together like he's considering.]
1/3 i'm sorry.
He knows logically that there will always be people who are needed to be just a part of a whole, and that it's important for them to be there. He would never deny that everyone can make a difference in their own way, just... it never felt like it applied to him. Like he had to be the best, or at least do something notable, or else he's a failure. For a second, he presses his lips together like he's considering.]