[ There's several things to unpack here. A shrug of response to him knowing. A little vague handwave, while he's busy with his drink. Very busy.
The raven tilts their head and pecks at the bar. There's a lot going on here.
Once the question is asked, though, Alex cuts off his gulp swiftly, because there's one and only one answer, here, and he's firm and clear about it, with the voice of someone who's experienced: ] The second.
They're still dead either way. The fact that you could've done something's- ...it weighs on you. Every single time you're trying to help someone else. It's there, in your head, on your back. Everywhere.
[ Weeks and weeks and months of it. When will his failure catch up with him? When will someone else pay the price? ]
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The raven tilts their head and pecks at the bar. There's a lot going on here.
Once the question is asked, though, Alex cuts off his gulp swiftly, because there's one and only one answer, here, and he's firm and clear about it, with the voice of someone who's experienced: ] The second.
They're still dead either way. The fact that you could've done something's- ...it weighs on you. Every single time you're trying to help someone else. It's there, in your head, on your back. Everywhere.
[ Weeks and weeks and months of it. When will his failure catch up with him? When will someone else pay the price? ]
...Doesn't go away.