[He doesn't guess it matters what he wants. That hasn't mattered in a long time. Instead of shutting the conversation down, he muffles his feelings again and speaks plainly.]

All I've done here is shatter a mirror, inconvenience people, and learn things I already knew. [And before that:] I haven't made any difference on any of these missions. On my first, I got someone killed because I was stupid enough to think I could find something worthwhile.

[His gaze moves to the floor.] I was supposed to be one of the chosen to save my world from an all-consuming spirit, too.

[And... well. They can see how that turned out.]