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Aziraphale ([personal profile] eastofeden) wrote in [community profile] balance_logs 2019-09-21 11:01 pm (UTC)

[ It seems impossible that he should ever forget this moment. Unfair, yes, but more than that, unthinkable. How could he possibly forget the person before him, leaning into his hand, his hot tears trickling down the sides of Aziraphale's fingers to his palm?

But it had happened before. It will happen again.

He doesn't even know Crowley, not now, not really, even having seen six thousand years of memories. He's seen what had occurred; he can't remember his own thoughts and feelings as it had. But he knows what he feels now. He knows how he had felt when he'd found that note tied around Mercury's neck, the tender, unconditional loyalty expressed in those few short words. And he can feel the full force of Crowley's emotions now, pouring off him in a wave.

Beside them, Crowley picks his way through the debris of a ruined church, while Aziraphale stands with a satchel clutched in his hand, looking after him with lips parted and eyes opened wide. A revelation. ]


Crowley.

[ It's too much. He doesn't have the memories, the words, the time to say all that he wants to say. He doesn't know where to begin, and this temporary reprieve is quickly coming to its end.

So he does the only thing he can do. He reaches up with his free hand, the other still pressed against Crowley's cheek, and gently plucks the glasses off Crowley's face. He needs to see him now, before he doesn't know what he's looking at again. ]


May I, my dear?

[ It's the easiest, most natural thing in the world. Aziraphale leans forward, eyes fluttering shut, and presses his lips gently against Crowley's, pouring into it all the twisted knot of emotions he's feeling. Anxiety and guilt and fear, that he'll forget again, that it will all end in a matter of moments. Amazement and gratitude and hope, and love.

Because, forgotten or not, how could he not love Crowley, when Crowley so clearly loves him? ]

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