[ A single huff, as Alex's eyebrows raise incredulously. ]
Wow, Lion, give me awhile to wrack my brain. Oh, wait, no, how 'bout how this place had my head in a fucking choke-hold of fake happiness, and now all the normal things, like fear and vigilance and wanting to stay alive are all rushing back like they're college kids on winter break, and I'm way out of practice managing them, and who the hell knows what other freaky Twilight Zone things happened while I was off in lalaland like a damn drugged-up, zoned-out asshole?
[ ...he kind of. starts slow and just descends, swiftly moving to full-on babbling, all of it coming out in a rushed, hissing breath, until the little voice in his head, the one that belongs to him and not stupid Wonderland and that sounds very much like Clear reminds him he's losing it, and to calm down.
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Wow, Lion, give me awhile to wrack my brain. Oh, wait, no, how 'bout how this place had my head in a fucking choke-hold of fake happiness, and now all the normal things, like fear and vigilance and wanting to stay alive are all rushing back like they're college kids on winter break, and I'm way out of practice managing them, and who the hell knows what other freaky Twilight Zone things happened while I was off in lalaland like a damn drugged-up, zoned-out asshole?
[ ...he kind of. starts slow and just descends, swiftly moving to full-on babbling, all of it coming out in a rushed, hissing breath, until the little voice in his head, the one that belongs to him and not stupid Wonderland and that sounds very much like Clear reminds him he's losing it, and to calm down.
Exhale. ]
Like that. That worried enough?