[ she does wince at that -- and there's a brief moment of self-doubt. did she make it worse? should she just have left? but she can't imagine that being the right answer, either. ]

.... I know. I messed up. I should have dodged better.

[ that's the problem here. she probably deserves to be snapped at. ]

Sorry. I don't want to tell you how to feel.... I just think that you've already suffered too much.