[Shuichi goes silent and closes his eyes again he's not sure if he wants to have this conversation with Kokichi. Because he's still not entirely sure how to FEEL about Kokichi. He'd come to consider him a friend (or as close to a friend as one can be with someone like Kokichi) over the course of those hours they spent together at the academy, but then...]
[Well, he's still not sure how much of what Kokichi has done and said is a lie and how much is true. He's not the mastermind, but...it's so hard to forget that malice he'd sensed from him after Gonta's execution. How much he'd seemed to enjoy both the game and watching them all suffer. What if his claim that he hated the game the whole time is a lie? What if his true nature is that twisted creature of malice he'd sensed those few days ago?]
[If he confides in Kokichi now, he'll just be handing him a weapon...something he can use to make him suffer later on.]
...this was the case that earned me my Super High School Level title. But I didn't really deserve it, you know? Like I said, I really just...happened to solve it. It was a little thing they overlooked and probably would have noticed eventually.
[In the end, he settles on a partial truth. This IS part of why it bothers him, but it's not the whole story. When he can trust Kokichi again...when he's a little more sure of his true nature...perhaps they can visit this topic again and Shuichi can tell him the other half.]
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[Well, he's still not sure how much of what Kokichi has done and said is a lie and how much is true. He's not the mastermind, but...it's so hard to forget that malice he'd sensed from him after Gonta's execution. How much he'd seemed to enjoy both the game and watching them all suffer. What if his claim that he hated the game the whole time is a lie? What if his true nature is that twisted creature of malice he'd sensed those few days ago?]
[If he confides in Kokichi now, he'll just be handing him a weapon...something he can use to make him suffer later on.]
...this was the case that earned me my Super High School Level title. But I didn't really deserve it, you know? Like I said, I really just...happened to solve it. It was a little thing they overlooked and probably would have noticed eventually.
[In the end, he settles on a partial truth. This IS part of why it bothers him, but it's not the whole story. When he can trust Kokichi again...when he's a little more sure of his true nature...perhaps they can visit this topic again and Shuichi can tell him the other half.]