No it's...not the murder. You saw the crime scene photos in the file, didn't you? Not that it was good or pleasant, but it wasn't...particularly gruesome. We've seen worse in the killing game.

[Though, at the time, that murder WAS the worst thing he'd ever seen. It was his first, after all. But now, compared to how their friends were executed...]

The reason I don't like talking about that case because of the outcome.