[Mutely, he shakes his head. No, not like that. Unless Shinjiro's got God's gift for understatement--nobody's ever used a word as noncommital as "kinda" to refer to Giorno Giovanna.]
This guy . . .
[This guy.]
When I say it shouldn't have been possible, I mean he was strong and just kept getting stronger, learning to do shit that human beings just shouldn't do. Like create life from nothing--like heal somebody who's mostly dead. That kind of thing. But it felt natural when it was him. It shouldn't have been possible, but it was, and it felt right.
So--yeah. I guess he thought--I know he thought, I've saved people before, I have to try for Buccellati. Even though he was dead, I mean . . . you hold out hope, right? For someone you care about. So he did what he'd done before, except Buccellati was dead, and it got--
[He waves his hands around vaguely, agitated, frustrated. Unable to articulate it right.]
All fucked up. The way we figured it out after, we think his soul was trying to leave, to pass on, but it got stuck to his body with what Giorno did. Except the body was still dead. His body was dead, and he was stuck in it. You--you see what I'm saying?
It got so bad, man. He hid it from us for a long time. He knew he was dead. He went blind and deaf and stopped being able to feel anything . . . Really, it was torture. The whole time he was suffering. He died, and then he lived in fuckin' misery for a few days more.
We had to watch him die, except we didn't realize it. He didn't tell us. He didn't want us to hurt. And then in the end, Giorno figured it out. He never forgave himself--I don't think he wanted to, or thought he . . .
[Hmm. Deserved to, is what Mista thinks, but keeps it back. He bows his head for a moment, thinking, or paying respects, or something. His chest hurts.]
Anyway. That's why I don't trust it. There's consequences for breaking the laws of life and death. They scare the shit out of me.
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This guy . . .
[This guy.]
When I say it shouldn't have been possible, I mean he was strong and just kept getting stronger, learning to do shit that human beings just shouldn't do. Like create life from nothing--like heal somebody who's mostly dead. That kind of thing. But it felt natural when it was him. It shouldn't have been possible, but it was, and it felt right.
So--yeah. I guess he thought--I know he thought, I've saved people before, I have to try for Buccellati. Even though he was dead, I mean . . . you hold out hope, right? For someone you care about. So he did what he'd done before, except Buccellati was dead, and it got--
[He waves his hands around vaguely, agitated, frustrated. Unable to articulate it right.]
All fucked up. The way we figured it out after, we think his soul was trying to leave, to pass on, but it got stuck to his body with what Giorno did. Except the body was still dead. His body was dead, and he was stuck in it. You--you see what I'm saying?
It got so bad, man. He hid it from us for a long time. He knew he was dead. He went blind and deaf and stopped being able to feel anything . . . Really, it was torture. The whole time he was suffering. He died, and then he lived in fuckin' misery for a few days more.
We had to watch him die, except we didn't realize it. He didn't tell us. He didn't want us to hurt. And then in the end, Giorno figured it out. He never forgave himself--I don't think he wanted to, or thought he . . .
[Hmm. Deserved to, is what Mista thinks, but keeps it back. He bows his head for a moment, thinking, or paying respects, or something. His chest hurts.]
Anyway. That's why I don't trust it. There's consequences for breaking the laws of life and death. They scare the shit out of me.