Surface answer would be to rid myself of these feelings and forget it happened.
[Which is not actually what he wants but he thought it best to share it with him anyway.]
I... I would like to... [Hesitate, restart. He hates answering things without knowing what he wants to say. And the problem is that he kind of does know but it sounds so stupid, so idealistic and ridiculous on every level that he hates it.] ...I would like that sort of relationship, someday. I don't... think I am equipped for it. But since you're speaking in a hypothetical, then yes, I would like to be, ah, close to him in that manner.
[After saying it, he makes a face.] I am not particularly good at being openly sentimental, either, so I apologise that it sounds... clinical. That isn't how I feel. Clinical, I mean, it's not clinical at all, that's why it's— [He breaks off, frustrated.] I just want him to—
[He stops.] I want him to feel the same way as me. Ideally. And be with him, ideally, in a way that doesn't hurt either of us. Which I am also not great at.
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Surface answer would be to rid myself of these feelings and forget it happened.
[Which is not actually what he wants but he thought it best to share it with him anyway.]
I... I would like to... [Hesitate, restart. He hates answering things without knowing what he wants to say. And the problem is that he kind of does know but it sounds so stupid, so idealistic and ridiculous on every level that he hates it.] ...I would like that sort of relationship, someday. I don't... think I am equipped for it. But since you're speaking in a hypothetical, then yes, I would like to be, ah, close to him in that manner.
[After saying it, he makes a face.] I am not particularly good at being openly sentimental, either, so I apologise that it sounds... clinical. That isn't how I feel. Clinical, I mean, it's not clinical at all, that's why it's— [He breaks off, frustrated.] I just want him to—
[He stops.] I want him to feel the same way as me. Ideally. And be with him, ideally, in a way that doesn't hurt either of us. Which I am also not great at.